I have learnt things the hard way .
God , i need rest .

Tomorrow is SATURDAY !
lalalalas ~
I'm going botanic garden with melissa .
A day of REST ! hahas !

Me just pissed a coordinator off over the phone !
the feeling is so fantastic ! Its beyond words okays ! how can she give me 15 miss calls in 30 mins !!!??
super zczxzygdsfbsdcts !

Ong Khai Seng sister talked to me on MSN ytd ..
He grow up alot ahs ! but still my sister !
I miss the times when we sit next to each other in class man ..
He is like the only guy in my school i can talk to when i got problem ..
Most of them who know him , think that he is damn rubbish .
But NO! He gave me the wisest advice , like God using him to get me when I'm such a stubborn donkey.
Sorry Daddy God !
even until now , i still think about the super big lolipop i gave him on him 14th birthday !
gagagas ! i pratically got nag by him for 1 whole month for that :S

in anyhoo , I just thank God for this Fantastic friend !
who also get me scolded by teacher cause he talked to me !
who always get the same score, even when he dont study !
stay up the night and talk to me when I'm surviving break ups !
Scold me like mad when I'm so stubborn !
BUTBUT ! Gave me praise on my 14th birthday ! hahs ..

What more can i ask for ? i have got such a Good sister/friend !

Some things can be mention for 101 times
but you will never hear it , unless you let your heart accept it

I might not be the best girlfriend in the entire world.
But I've done my best to be your best girlfriend I could ever be.



They said I'm still young, I can find a better guy.
But loving someone like you, those better guys are inexistent.

Hahas ! i came back from malaysia looking like this !
like a kuku fishball ..

well , i guess its time for a change also .
didn't do any shopping at malaysia lahs ..
their Sultan died and all shops have to be closed !
nooooooooo choice lahs !

There are so many things that i wish i could do but i know , i will just look unto Jesus ..

Hebrews 12:2
2looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith...

Going Malaysia tonight ):
I just don't feel like going for don't-know-what-is-the-reason .

Have not been feeling good since i got my results .
I know very clearly that it's not my results that made me feel like this .
cause i know that I'm really pleased with the results ,
it even earned me things that i have been wishing for from my parents after so many years .

Let the trip to Malaysia be a good one , so that i will be refresh when i come back on sat night ..
A Short trip does wonders when i commit it to the hands of God .

God , thank you . despite feeling like shit , i clearly aware that You love me .
Lord Jesus , thank You for dieing on the cross for me, thank You that It is FINISHED !~

I'm aiming to go for lunch on time today !(:

Sometimes i ask myself , what do i really want.

This is excatly the verse that i have been holding since i got my results .
i dont know why but i have got this escaping attitude..

I dont want to know what results others get, for I'm afraid that i will feel sad
I dont want to know what results YOU get, for I'm afraid to know that he is better of without me .
I dont want to know what kind of live or how are YOU now, for i dont know what will happen to me .
sometimes i really wonder why. Daddy , why ?
I love him, i know he is the one .
For him , i made alot of sacrifices but why ...

then again , I thank God for His grace.
i know if i cry because of YOU before i get my results , i will be feeling terrible when i see YOU
but i only break down when i got home from school.

Lord , thank you ..

this verse actually managed to tell me all over again that,
It does not matter in whatever we do , the only thing that really matter is that God is the ONE who is doing all these things for us .
Without Him nothing is possible .

Daddy God , in 2009 , there is so many ups and downs.
the only thing that is worth rejoicing is that , I went back home , to Your house .