I asked God for gentleness and I'm seeing the manifestation. Amen.











Prayer may not change things for you but it will change you for things.

It took me by surprise how human jealousy can cause so many negative thoughts and feeling.
I didn't know be one of them as well. All the way before camp, this has been attacking me and yet I didn't realise.

Church is not a place that has perfect people, but people who has flaws; people who needs God in their life.
I thought I was really favored to have kingdom friends that have me in their heart. Maybe i was wrong, we are not perfect, so why put our expectation on human?

Yet, I'm so thankful for LEGACYcamp2011. Indeed history making. Friendship bond that got stronger, yes, Gernette phebe, I'm talking about you. Things that I have discovered and realized, heartbreaking but thank God that it only made me stronger to know that, it's not other people's opinion that I have to listen to but just what God has to say. Yes, there are times that I have to seek people for opinions but I have to find the right person as well. Praise God, that You showed me who are the right counsels to go to in times of need for Godly opinions.
LEGACYcamp2011 was a camp of reminder as well, reminding me how bless I am. Despite coming from a non-believer family, I'm not ashamed of where God has placed me. In fact, because of the placing that I'm in, I came to discover so much blessing that God store in the small corners of my household.

This few months has been a constant reminders and teaching from God, about all aspects in my life. I saw so much changes in my life that change has been a constant to me.
After arrow on Saturday, I just realized that you are just a sheep that God has placed in my life for me to shepherd in that season of your life. That season is over, I have to move on and shepherd other sheep as well.

I was really angry about you, not being you in front of other people. But, now I know that I don't have to be. Neither do i have to pity you. You have God, you just need to step out of it, nobody thinks you are perfect and nobody will be.

I miss you so much that it hurts

Grandfather

I was taught by him that the grass will always be greener at the other side if we don't know how to apperciate what we have in front of us.
He told me how songs can brighten up my mood whenever I'm sad, since then, I love singing and joined choir when i was in secondary school.
He told me that no matter how people bully you, there's a part of them that is always empty and somehow, they wanted to be like you.
I was taught by him to be forgiving and always give people a second chance but be wise about the situation, not because you are easy but you are mature enough.
He told me that to be able give to others is a blessing, when i have a full understanding of that, I never stop thinking of going on mission work.

He taught me how to the world/situation in a different way because his love for me was different.
Everybody can have a Grandfather, but the love he gave me was out of ordinary.

Grandfather, it's been 8 years. I miss and love you still. I hope you are doing well up there.

Legacy 2011

Daddy has made the child of God the Diamonds of the world. The world has the tendency to throw rocks at things that shine. The child of God are Diamonds that shine in a way that the world will never understand, they want to be us but will never be the same as us. We do get attack by rocks but remember that Diamonds are the toughest rock in the world. We do get hit but it will never get any scratches.

Another Diamond will just sharpen another Diamond.

Don't be dependent on me, I won't be there forever.
Don't get too close to me, I prefer to be a free spirit.

You seems so fake to me. I don't know why but it seems like I don't know you anymore.
Don't act innocent or just don't be someone you are not.

Even people told me that, you are not what you seems to be like.


I'm disappointed in you, I really am.

There are times where courage seems to vanish, where confidence seems to be hiding. 

I cant count the number of times when I feel like this. 

The feeling of not being appreciated, listened and everything and everybody seems to be draining out of you.

These are times when I feel like doing nothing and let everything slip out of my hand.

Telling people that " You think  it's easy? Why not you do it? "

But the thought of not completing whatever I started always holds me back. 

Sometimes, I ask God, why? Why have You made me like this?

I just wanna stay at your feet and feed. I wanna smile to you and say Daddy God thank you for making my day.

Why is it that when things are piling up, it seems to me harder to do so? 

Nevertheless, I still thank God that whenever such things happen, i just wanna draw close to Him. 

Let Him offer me counsel that comes from above. 

You are still the strength that holds on to me whenever I can't stand still.

Thank you for not giving up when when I have given up