Going Malaysia tonight ):
I just don't feel like going for don't-know-what-is-the-reason .

Have not been feeling good since i got my results .
I know very clearly that it's not my results that made me feel like this .
cause i know that I'm really pleased with the results ,
it even earned me things that i have been wishing for from my parents after so many years .

Let the trip to Malaysia be a good one , so that i will be refresh when i come back on sat night ..
A Short trip does wonders when i commit it to the hands of God .

God , thank you . despite feeling like shit , i clearly aware that You love me .
Lord Jesus , thank You for dieing on the cross for me, thank You that It is FINISHED !~

I'm aiming to go for lunch on time today !(:

Sometimes i ask myself , what do i really want.

This is excatly the verse that i have been holding since i got my results .
i dont know why but i have got this escaping attitude..

I dont want to know what results others get, for I'm afraid that i will feel sad
I dont want to know what results YOU get, for I'm afraid to know that he is better of without me .
I dont want to know what kind of live or how are YOU now, for i dont know what will happen to me .
sometimes i really wonder why. Daddy , why ?
I love him, i know he is the one .
For him , i made alot of sacrifices but why ...

then again , I thank God for His grace.
i know if i cry because of YOU before i get my results , i will be feeling terrible when i see YOU
but i only break down when i got home from school.

Lord , thank you ..

this verse actually managed to tell me all over again that,
It does not matter in whatever we do , the only thing that really matter is that God is the ONE who is doing all these things for us .
Without Him nothing is possible .

Daddy God , in 2009 , there is so many ups and downs.
the only thing that is worth rejoicing is that , I went back home , to Your house .

3 hours of mother tongue this week , I like .
though i might just dread it by Wednesday.
As i can predict , letter writing, compo, MT paper 2 ..

I can more or less foresee my results and the number of underlines i will get when i receive my report book .
Daddy&mummy have been nice to me, telling me that they wont mind about the results i get this time . But, will slaughter me if i get the same results for my prelims .
Somehow , i THINK teachers who are marking my maths , poa&science papers might fall off theirs or pull their hair when they mark my paper .
because , yours sincerely , just found out during my last few paper , I kept mixing up the plus , minus , times and divide buttons on my calculator !

Guan ling might just vomit blood when she see my paper XD
whatever it is , its over . I will do better next time .

Mummy brought me a new school bag , same as sweet , just the colour is different ..

Ps: I think its time to pack my room XD