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Monday, December 12, 2011
I asked God for gentleness and I'm seeing the manifestation. Amen.











Prayer may not change things for you but it will change you for things.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
It took me by surprise how human jealousy can cause so many negative thoughts and feeling.
I didn't know be one of them as well. All the way before camp, this has been attacking me and yet I didn't realise.

Church is not a place that has perfect people, but people who has flaws; people who needs God in their life.
I thought I was really favored to have kingdom friends that have me in their heart. Maybe i was wrong, we are not perfect, so why put our expectation on human?

Yet, I'm so thankful for LEGACYcamp2011. Indeed history making. Friendship bond that got stronger, yes, Gernette phebe, I'm talking about you. Things that I have discovered and realized, heartbreaking but thank God that it only made me stronger to know that, it's not other people's opinion that I have to listen to but just what God has to say. Yes, there are times that I have to seek people for opinions but I have to find the right person as well. Praise God, that You showed me who are the right counsels to go to in times of need for Godly opinions.
LEGACYcamp2011 was a camp of reminder as well, reminding me how bless I am. Despite coming from a non-believer family, I'm not ashamed of where God has placed me. In fact, because of the placing that I'm in, I came to discover so much blessing that God store in the small corners of my household.

This few months has been a constant reminders and teaching from God, about all aspects in my life. I saw so much changes in my life that change has been a constant to me.
After arrow on Saturday, I just realized that you are just a sheep that God has placed in my life for me to shepherd in that season of your life. That season is over, I have to move on and shepherd other sheep as well.

I was really angry about you, not being you in front of other people. But, now I know that I don't have to be. Neither do i have to pity you. You have God, you just need to step out of it, nobody thinks you are perfect and nobody will be.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I miss you so much that it hurts

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Grandfather

I was taught by him that the grass will always be greener at the other side if we don't know how to apperciate what we have in front of us.
He told me how songs can brighten up my mood whenever I'm sad, since then, I love singing and joined choir when i was in secondary school.
He told me that no matter how people bully you, there's a part of them that is always empty and somehow, they wanted to be like you.
I was taught by him to be forgiving and always give people a second chance but be wise about the situation, not because you are easy but you are mature enough.
He told me that to be able give to others is a blessing, when i have a full understanding of that, I never stop thinking of going on mission work.

He taught me how to the world/situation in a different way because his love for me was different.
Everybody can have a Grandfather, but the love he gave me was out of ordinary.

Grandfather, it's been 8 years. I miss and love you still. I hope you are doing well up there.
Sunday, June 26, 2011

Legacy 2011

Daddy has made the child of God the Diamonds of the world. The world has the tendency to throw rocks at things that shine. The child of God are Diamonds that shine in a way that the world will never understand, they want to be us but will never be the same as us. We do get attack by rocks but remember that Diamonds are the toughest rock in the world. We do get hit but it will never get any scratches.

Another Diamond will just sharpen another Diamond.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Don't be dependent on me, I won't be there forever.
Don't get too close to me, I prefer to be a free spirit.

You seems so fake to me. I don't know why but it seems like I don't know you anymore.
Don't act innocent or just don't be someone you are not.

Even people told me that, you are not what you seems to be like.


I'm disappointed in you, I really am.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011

There are times where courage seems to vanish, where confidence seems to be hiding. 
I cant count the number of times when I feel like this. 
The feeling of not being appreciated, listened and everything and everybody seems to be draining out of you.

These are times when I feel like doing nothing and let everything slip out of my hand.
Telling people that " You think  it's easy? Why not you do it? "
But the thought of not completing whatever I started always holds me back. 
Sometimes, I ask God, why? Why have You made me like this?
I just wanna stay at your feet and feed. I wanna smile to you and say Daddy God thank you for making my day.

Why is it that when things are piling up, it seems to me harder to do so? 

Nevertheless, I still thank God that whenever such things happen, i just wanna draw close to Him. 
Let Him offer me counsel that comes from above. 
You are still the strength that holds on to me whenever I can't stand still.
Thank you for not giving up when when I have given up
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011

I'm still alive

After a year of consideration, I FINALLY got my camera!
Jiamin totally gave me that " finally ah? " face when i show her my new toy this afternoon.
I'm loving it! the image quality(:




That's the free camera holder harvey norman throw in! Its nice isn't it? :D
Went over to the flyer with Jiamin after Easter service!
Oh, Happy Resurrection day everybody!
Remember that 2000 years ago, its the love that Jesus has for us that made Him took the cross so willingly for you and I. Its not the nails that kept Him there but the love that He has for us.
He bear all our sins and ugliness so that today we will enjoy the liberty and righteousness that He gave up at the cross.
Oh, and new creation church gave out presents to everybody! A book!








 I'm still learning how to use the focus function.-_-







We left our ice cream under the sun and forget about it COMPLETELY!

Jia min was forcing me to take this picture but i wanted to go home so badly!




I'm back to school again. 
New problem everyday, surfing the net, staring at Wiki and google. Making new friends.
But its all science modules this semester, imagine my mood when i go to school everyday! ):
Monday, April 11, 2011

SHAG.

helped out at 2XU human performance today.
Having muscle ache all over now.
It's been sometime since i felt such aching in my body, it feels good. I still love muscle ache:D


Thank you Jesus that you put me at the right place at the right time
Never thought that yayapapaya will be running at for the event as well(:
Friday, April 8, 2011

PAST OR FUTURE?

Which way?
Have you ever been in the position where you need to make a decision which route to take. Pondering over which is the brighter and glorious future?
Thursday, April 7, 2011
People, take the time to pray for Japan.
Sunday, April 3, 2011

You aren't as important as you like to believe

Friday, April 1, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011

The things I miss

 Dancing 

I have almost forgotten how it feels like to dance so openly on stage and how my muscle will ache after each satisfying practice. Nevertheless, it still warms my hearts when i see my dance students coming up to me when I will sit in for observation and ask how my back is. Their promise of standing on stage that I dream off in representative of me just keeps me going on when I feel like giving up. No doubt, they are all God given presents.

Given a chance, I wanna make DANCE IT public. Where all the students are free to do what they want to do (: I have made a promise and i will never go against my words.

Grandfather.

He is part of the reason why I'm here and who I am today. He loves me when I don't deserve it the most He never allow me to lie to myself, even if others do not know the truth. He made me wanna be special, set apart of the world. Not in terms of looks and all these things that how bimbo a girl should be even though i have friends that are close to me that things outer appearance is everything. He taught me to be special in a different way, to make a difference in people's life to let them know there is still Hope. Help to change the negative things of the world and be the girl that give people story to tell(a good one).

He might not have know what Christ is but he was surely walking in it when he was still in the world.

You. 

Right from the end of secondary 3, it has been just you and nobody else. Sometimes I just miss you so much that i feel like breaking down. The things that we shared. the thing i miss the most will be your scent and comforting hug that ease my emotions everything I'm in your arms and taking in how smoothing you smell.

I just hope that one day when we meet again, we are able to speak to each other again.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I have never been a person who accept praise, thanks as they come. I feel awkward all the time. People usually enjoy being the spotlight, but i don't. I only ask for being the spotlight when it comes to the one I love. Simple as that. The only special one that matters the most to me.


Don't people feel pressurized when other come to you and say ' hey, you did great. I'm looking forward to something better next time! ' or when the little ones that you are grooming come to you and say ' you are my role model, i hope i can be like you when i grow up '

More than often, i freak out when i hear all these statements. I'm just who i am.I just want to be who i want to be and yet i don't want to be a disappointment to others expectation. I dream of doing the craziest things in life whereby i don't have to answer to anybody about my actions.

I like things to go according to my mood, i don't like to be tied down when i know i still have so much more that i have not experience or tasted in my life. Yet at the same time, you want a reason why you doll up and look forward to meeting every single time. A person that is willing and proud for you to call him your another half.

I want to be special in my own way, that i don't have to answer to anybody in this world. What everybody think and saw in me was just the surface. I'm a sucker for a deep conversation and intellectual comments and advise than whats on the surface.

Apart from the loud, playful and all smiling me, the quiet, observant and deep in thoughts me is still the dominant one in my life. I might appear to strong and all things just goes well in my life but i still want a pair of arm that I can go to when i go home. I will be lying if i say i don't miss him.

Cough medicine also does this to me, but i seriously miss you being in my life.
Monday, February 28, 2011

Goodbye February

February just pass in a blink.
Did i mention that I'm moving on to year 2 already?!?!

Ut ended last Monday and i fall sick on sat.  Flu, cough, fever. You name it, i have it.
How awesome it is to fall sick during holidays?

Made this scrap book sometime ago for Jo to bring it back to korea.
I'm falling in love with card making and scrap booking. Never did i know that i will have the 'artistic' side of me at all.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
This person never learn...
Darryl: Do you want to date those guys?
Me: Shut up.
Darryl: Do you wanna know more about them?
Me: No.
Darryl: Do you want me to ask them to join us for lunch?
Me: Do you want me to punch you? Though I'm a girl, I'm sure it will hurt!
Darryl: You could have just said no.
Me: Are you deaf or what? I said that already!
Darryl: Whatever, I always get punched, slapped or cursed by you when guys want to date you through me. No worries, i know you are just shy. I will help you no matter what.
Me: Arr, just go and die already



Look at my Itouch memory! Can't believe i 'stuff' so much stuff in! hahahs!
Saturday, February 19, 2011

Just stand up



everything will be alright again
alright again, alright again

the heart is stronger than you think
like it could go through anything
and even when you think it can’t?
It finds a way to still push on though

Sometimes you want to run away
don‘t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into your heart
The beat goes on

I'm telling you things get better through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know!

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
but the heart keeps telling you don't give up
who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what?
Don't give up, through it all, just stand up

Ooh, it's like we all had better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don't mean it got to take control, no

You don't got to find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the hate
Don’t want to let the mind keep playing you
Saying you can't go on

I’m telling? You things get better through whatever
If you fall, dust if off, don’t let up
Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know!



You don’t got to be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off, you can live your life
Yeah, let your heart be your guide
Yeah yeah

You will know there's a good if you trust the good
Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better through whatever


You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
Find it within you, find it within
Through it all, just stand up
Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Baking frenzy ~

Hows everybody's CNY celebration this year?
I really had a good one this year with the people i dislike to go overseas to celebrate CNY!
Hiak hiak :D awesome much!

I'm waiting for my uncle to pass me the photos so that i can upload them here. Obviously my family isn't a fan of film camera. i have got no photos from my lomo camera ):

nevertheless, I'm already thinking of some good spot where i want to venture off after my UT3 to take some photos (:
any places to recommend?
anybody know which railway i can go to take photos?

I'm baking some yummy oreo cheese cake now! have been baking so much since new year
Mini Nutella muffin, fudge brownie , Brownie cheese cake ~
Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Fingerprints

Last UT for Year 1 and i will be moving on to Year 2!
Have never use so much anointing oil when i'm studying!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Previously i got a white ultra wide and slim camera from Filmsnapsnap !
I was really excited when i saw it in my mailbox that afternoon! I really like the fact that its has a really wide lens
Saw the details? i never expect to see such clear picture at all. Totally love the details!
This was taken at the void deck. Clearly the photo isn't as bright as the photo above, but don't you just love the effect??


Absolutely love this photo:D:D  The wide lens capture the lovely blocks in my school.

My friends look really happy and natural in this photo right ?? (:




This was taken indoors. Really wished that there is a flash for this camera .
Just checked out filmsnapsnap before i posted this. They have added new colors for Ultra wide and slim.
I'm loving the hot pink one.

Ultra wide and Slim is easy to set up, at least to me. and there is no need for editing the photos, all is natural :D Don't you just love the vintage effect ?? (:
Thursday, January 27, 2011

Sometimes i miss you so much i can't feel other thing.

I have typed thousands of words for the past hour, but i have deleted them off as well
Nothing can describe what i feel. It has always been like this. I have lots to say, but i can never settle with the right word/sentence or anything to express it. 

With you, everything is just heartfelt. No words can describe them. /-
GOD has not forgotten. He has seen your battles. He has gathered your tears and blotter your brow. He knows those who have treated you unfairly. He knows when you’re almost ready to give up or give in. Keep telling HIM. Stay in HIS Word. Keep claiming HIS promises. GOD assures you over and over about HIS plan. Don’t let conflict cloud your calling.
-Beth Moore (A Heart Like His)
Tuesday, January 18, 2011

You and i together it just feel so right








When boredom strikes in class, i will start taking pictures all around.
I won't even stay in class! Loving Iphone camera,why doesn't blackberry have such awesome applications?!
Monday, January 17, 2011

I ain't any firecracker .

Can i say I'm starting to love science?
I don't know what happen but i thank God for this transformation .
though i might not understand what the problem statement is talking about half of the time,
I'm glad that love for science made me put in the effort to find it out myself , or ask others for help.

Few days ago, Darryl describe me as firecracker.
Hey boy, I'm ain't any firecracker, I don't give out small beautiful sparks that decorate the nigh sky.
I'm a bomb, once ignite, i explode and create a mess (:
Monday, January 10, 2011

2010 at a glance

Took over one more class from Mr lance's wife. Practiced ballet more diligently than ever. Felt most satisfied with my dance progress at that point of time but was really irritated at the private policy. I have to keep everything to myself.

Continue working at trust tuition and hate it more and more everyday.Wanted to quit the job and 'nua' at home until i get my results and start studying. persevered and worked smart instead of worked hard :D

Got my Olevels results, was really thankful to God that I passed and in fact exceed my expectations. I saw how faithful God is and His fingerprints all around my grades!

Moved from SpCG to RpCG, was reluctant at first, but i bear in mind that God is with me wherever i go like how God is with Joseph. Have been doing well so far!










Enroll into Rp, cause JAE was ridiculous. Got into a course that I'm totally not interested in but did surprisingly well in my modules. Never thought I'm able to do well in science before :D



Quit my job once i enroll into RP! MOST AWESOME FEELING BACK THAN!

Started serving in CG, saw how God maximize my capacity to give and receive. At the same time, hurt my back again during dance and have to give up what i used to thought was 'my life'.
Rotate between sitting in to observe class and teaching whenever my back allows me to. Was really grateful that none of my teacher and dance partner has ever given up on me.



Finished my first sem, missed E25D peeps, my banmian kahkis; Eric, xiangji, emerald and such. (only keep close contact with xiangji now ): )
Went on to the next sem, found awesome girls in W14C. At the same time, met people whom are arrrgh! Taught me not to trust people so easily and that when we know more of God, we know less of this world.

Met up with my primary school classmates, dragged Melissa along, Paid $2 or $3 bucks to visit universal world. Not my cup of tea, photos and thrill rides, not interested at all. Went to the first concert ever in my last and made up my mind that it will be the last, JYJ fanmeet with Melissa. Her friend offered her a  free ticket and she asked one for me as well so that i can accompany her. Totally irritated by the screaming.

Celebrated my 18th with a blast!
RPCG celebrated earlier for me, was complete shock when they started to sing birthday song to me. Remember very clearly that Joan lied to me that she is not coming for arrow nor sharing, debra kept on insisting that i sit back facing the lift. Suspected that a celebration is coming already but brush it off as soon as it comes. CG tricked me with a bag full of doreamon and after that the real present of dress, jacket and belt came. Was really touched.

when clock strikes 12 on 5th Oct, Darrly and guys called me down to celebrate my birthday, simple, havoc but i still love them. They performed Beat it by Micheal Jackson which i wanted to see them dance all the time.

During the day, KOHXINYIhoney and Jiamin came to my door and surprised me with my favorite flower; lilies but not the right color:D Spent the whole day with them at City. Had late sat and cab around the WHOLE DAY, likewise, kept eating the whole day!

Christmas was totally awesome! God brought back my RETARDS from newyork. miss them effing much! was almost crying when i hug them! Celebrated with RPCG as well, and also meals with my closer ones. I feel so loved!

NEWYEAR COUNTDOWN! Totally looked forward to 2011! count down with RP and ITE CG. Holy communion at 12 am, marks a new start of everything.


 Indeed a year of Restful Increase
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2010 have been an awesome journey for me. I'm looking forward to 2011, where the path of the righteous gets brighter and brighter !
 

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